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and there was nothing.
nothing left in the end.


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nothing particular.
the place people come to for help.
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(Monday, September 11, 2006/10:12 PM)

Rebel
"Your Number one thing in life is studying, so buck up and do so." Oh really? Well think twice before you say that again, I just gave you a chance this time, and it's your last.

Let's start 9/11/2006.

Wonderful chapel, couldn't be any better. Shi kept jabbing me. The only thing that seemed to remain in place was Kee. A bit retarded of me, maybe, but he seemed like the only normal one. No offense the rest of ya, I never said you were retarded, just abnormal. It's not like I didn't change either.

Slacked English class. Joash did a super imitation of Martin Luther King. Kee was with Du. At least that fact hadn't changed, not that I'm saying your'e gay, Kee.

What a boring day.

When I got home, I played WoW for a little. Then my mom and dad came home and shouted for me to come and eat dinner. Ended up fighting with them over why I should mug like an ass. Of course, I let my parents win. Either that or they blew my head off. My father just shouted "Studies should be Number 1 in your life, and not the computer!" Okay, if I'd knew better I wouldn't have started this bloody argument. It's not the computer or studies that are Number 1 in my life, I've got 1 more important thing in my life that's more meaningful than the rest, it's just that you 2 creators-of-my-wrecked-life won't understand if I told you what it was, it would only make things far worse. So I just sat there and cried, not that I can do anything about it.

Parents are out currently, so I can steal this post in. From 9 to 9.10 I tried to practice my beloved piano unsucessfully. My hand ended up shaking harder than if you were in underwear in Antartica. Went to stare at the sky, only to find no stars. Great, even the heavens hate me now. Called Kee and got some encouraging stuff that was not entirely from him, shall not elaborate. I suppose I must get my fair share of play and I'll mug equally hard, just to show my parents that that most important thing can be juggled with 2 other almost-as-important ones, or at least important according to my lifegivers. Of course, the attendance to whatever the most-important may be will be 24/7. Be it attending to the other 2 or sleeping, eating, whatever. Because all I need to do is hope and bless.

Is it a boring day now?


Thanks:
2 extra thanks to do today, goes to Kee and whoever his message to me brought. You 2 give me hope that almost disappeared, I'll continue fighting even though its not cancer. Thank you. (=

"godblessyou in whatever you do (="